Tales of a Misspent Youth: A Poetry Collection

by James Marcoff

The Cat and the Darkly Dressed Gnome

a cat sits silently
half awake
half asleep
one eye open
purring softly
as a gentle breeze
drifts across
the sunlit windowsill

a small little gnome
dressed in all black
disheveled from
his long journey from
the unknown

he walks softly
as not to disturb
the large predator
that stands before him

only one way to freedom
out the window
where the beast lies

the cat’s open eye
catches the gnome’s
as the two
both freeze
in horror

the gnome’s eyes
dart around
looking for another
escape
but find nothing

the darkly dressed gnome
knows he has
only one chance
for freedom
and leaps for
the open window
only to be pounced upon
by the large
beast
guarding his path
to freedom

as the sharp teeth sink deeply into
the blood stained gnome
one last thought
dances through
his dying mind:
should have stayed home today

Friends

running
i am running
running through a bleak and barren world
someone (something) is chasing me
i dare not look back
for if i do
it would mean certain death
i look far ahead
and never look back
i see the light
but miss the darkness

i fall
for what seems like ages
finally i see and outstretched hand
it pulls me up
i see the face, smiling
and we walk towards the light
together

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blood washes down
my face
red is all i can
see
walking down
the dark, lonely
streets
naked
covered in someone else’s
blood
shivering

Suicide by Smoke

the putrid smell
encompasses your entire body
as soon as that first flick of
the flint hits the end of
the satanic blend of
pure, sweet death
the evilness of everyone
starts to explode from the inside
slowly eating away
at your very soul

making it through the day
is going to be hard again

playing a game of
russian-roulette
everyday
with life as the prize

finger stained yellow
insides stained black

i guess it’ll all work out
in the end
when it really matters

Scales of Time

the scale gently tips
as you place another chip on the tray
how many chips, one-by-one, will it take?
your hair turns grey
as each season changes
when you finally decide which chip
will actually weigh out the other
you slip into the endless
dark hole of infinity (.)

Innocence Taken

as the glistening somber rain
drips to the end of her nose
the sun disappears behind the clouds
her hair soaked
from the tears of a thousand crying souls
capturing her innocence
lost just minutes ago
taken by the claws of another
throughout pleading, screaming, praying
hoping…
but her cries went unanswered
as did her faith
lost in that dark, lonely alley
looking deep into her eyes
one could see
for a brief instant
the true evilness
of man

The Chore

plotting
planning
there’s nothing to it
plain, easy, simple
five lessons
you will fell better after

getting your guts intact
to carry out
the dastardly deed
is the hardest
part

is it over?
feel better?
you’re next!

Voodoo Priestess

the first
light of dawn
hits the
fluorescent leaves
of the psychedelic
headdress
of the
voodoo
priestess
glistening in
her eye
as she
chants in
the new
day

Sad Clown

the sad clown
brushes his
gloomy face
removing his
mask and
revealing his
bitter
cracked
old
face
worn out
from trying
to make people
happy
but crying
eternally

Melting Pot of Shit

magnetized pieces of shit
clinging together
in a melting pot
society
scurrying around
searching for meaning
finding nothing
wasting time
dead

Nothing

little children
play mercifully
on the hot
burning
sun
while bright
purple flowers
wither away
to
nothing

Held Back

lusting after
something i can
never obtain
setting my goals
to lead to
disappointment

stuck in a
separate class
from birth

never being able
to break the
shackles that
keep me
from rising above
who i
am supposed
to be

The Test

sitting down
pressure’s on
sweat dripping
from my
nervous neck

“Begin!”

what is this?
a foreign language?
A B B A C A D A B B A
that’s all i can think of
i write down my name
but can’t remember
it

“Pencil’s down!”

a blank sheet
great
another failure

Intelligence Lost

stupidity surrounds me
everywhere i look
everywhere i turn to
therein lies the
little bug of
obtuseness

death and destruction
known only to the intelligent
disappears from my mind
as i am overwhelmed
by invisible rays of
ignorant
bliss

Slipping into Stupidity

imbibing the sweet
intoxicants
that life
has to
offer

wasting away
slowly
but never
caring
that my own
self
is slowly
slipping
away

downwards
into the
drain we call
stupidity

Fade Away

never knowing the
feeling
of steaming
hot blood
splattering on
your body

the knife
penetrates deeply
into your back

never seeing it coming
from the ones
you trusted
most

the
laughter
echoes
eternally
as
you
fade
away

Hidden Potential

swollen and protruding
my mind disappears
and a whole new world
opens up before me

i am
simply reacting
to the stimuli
surrounding me

never knowing
the secret potential
that hides
deep within
my own
inner self-made
hell

Death of A Hippie

anarchy, violence, hatred
peace, love, freedom

seeing each other
the fire catches

he grabs the scum
by his beaded neck
and pounds his dirty face
into the blood stained
concrete

his nose breaks
and a combination of
blood and snot
flies everywhere

he grabs a knife
and creates a new orifice
by twisting, shoving
the metal deep inside

looking at the
blob of flesh
that was once human
but not anymore
he stumbles backwards
realizing what happened
fleeing
forever

Numb

constantly hurting
pain hidden deep within
that i cannot
feel
never caring
about myself
only knowing
that i exist
nothing more

happiness is a
foreign language
to me
as i drift through life
dark and
abysmal

Bear Minimum

enveloped by loneliness
my own insecurity
making my decisions for me
choosing which keys to press
to write this

never having the ability
to choose for myself

awkward situations
blowing up
ten times their
original size

never really caring
never really feeling
existing

bear minimum
it has always been
bear minimum
it will always be

never the time for actions
always a time for thinking
everything inside

grabbing the cold, hard steel
pleading, begging, screaming
for freedom

how long has it been?
i guess it doesn’t matter
anymore
nothing matters

randomness all over
no explanation for anything
nothing makes sense anymore

the past is a bunch of lies
if that’s so true
why do i live there
so much?

Unknowing

my mind is in shambles
tearing at the inner walls
of sanity

clawing its way out
to be free
once again

confusion clouds
all that i know
withering down
to nothing

void and empty i am
purposeless
wandering into
an oblivious
destruction
of my own
self-made
purgatory

dissipated feelings
replaced only with
hate
fear
and
loneliness

Too Much/Too Little

i am too intelligent
for you
i am too young
for you
i am too talkative
for you
i am too active
for you
i am too creative
for you
i am too philosophical
for you
i am too sweet
for you

i am not outgoing enough
for you
i am not attractive enough
for you
i am not old enough
for you
i am not strong enough
for you
i am not stupid enough
for you
i am not enough fun
for you

is there anyone
out there
for me?

i am
losing
all
hope

Fitting In

why does no one understand
why I have to be so different
from everyone else
i just want people
to like me
i guess

trying to impress
the public
trying to be
myself
but finding myself
lost in everyone
trying to fit
all my pieces together
but not being able
to find a
single one

who am i?
what does everyone
want me to be?
why can’t everyone just
SHUT THE FUCK UP!

Soul Mates Forever

soul mates is what
You
said we were
together forever
no doubt in
Your
mind

to think of
how easily
You
tossed me away
like i was nothing to
You

the time we spent together
both the good and the bad
i gave
You
all i had to offer

my heart, my soul
myself
and
You
were willing to
throw
it
all
away

forgiveness for
You
is not possible

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